We see, what we believe to be, perfect people every day. Turning the television on, flipping through channels, we watch and wonder-are the perfect people even capable of making a mistake? A quick judgement resulting in life becoming unbalanced? The answer is yes. However, in today’s world, with celebrity reality shows, extreme makeovers, celebrity blogs, (or personal blogs of non-celebrities for that matter), we often feel as if we have failed in our own lives because we want what they have achieved.
I am the first to say-perfectionism is a quality one is born with. Does this mean I’m perfect? Far from it, but, I feel as if everything I do, ever task I encounter, has to be perfect. When a decision I make, or a job I perform doesn’t turn out for the better, I blame. Myself.
I haven’t written much on my personal life for several months. The reason? No one wants to read a blog in which a person does nothing but complain about his or her life and how it isn’t going the way they feel it should. This is my life at the moment. The mistakes I’ve made in the last 2 years have taken their toll. I mentioned I interviewed for a job-an excellent job and was selected as one of the top two candidates. In order to complete the process I had to take a personality test-to determine if my personality fit the job. Needless to say, after not hearing from the company, I called to check the status. I was told and I am quoting, “Beth, they decided to go with the other girl because she has more Microsoft Access experience, but, we’ll keep you in mind for future openings.” Basically, my personality wasn’t a match for a job consisting of entering invoice information in an Access database and pulling/running reports when a company requested an invoice. I could do this in my sleep. What hurt, is the fact the woman I interviewed with, liked me-she told me so. Everything she said, her body language, her telling me almost every detail of her life while in the interview, (an interview that lasted an hour), told me she wanted me for the job. But no. A test established by people who have never met me, told them otherwise-I wasn’t right person. Now, what is the mistake I made? I gave up a job, albeit a job with a company who lied to me about pay, duties, work schedule, all because I had a chance at a much higher paying position at a more reputable company. I’m back to square one, searching for a job that isn’t there and doing my best to make ends meet. The biggest mistake I have made in my life is not completing college. I have 2 years to go- funding is possible, but I have to have a job in order to pay for gas there and back. I have to have money for food, utilities, and basic necessities. Am I down? Yes, more than any of you will ever know. I made a mistake, I took a risk and I failed. As the title of the post states, to make a mistake is to live life. I’m living my life. The best way I know possible.