Today is my mom’s birthday. She’s the big 6-1. She’s also shrinking, or, I’m getting taller. We aren’t sure. At one time in her life she was 5′7. I’m 5′4. You do the math. We had a good dinner, ate strawberry shortcake and basically spent a lazy Sunday outside on the porch. This is what Southerners do. Spend time on the front or back porch. In fact, I think we invented the porch. The view wasn’t quite as nice as usual, however. You can see why in the photo below. Mom and her man-friend are now picking up channels from the Arctic.
Is the way my desktop looks and functions. I’ve tried various shell replacements-the only one I was really happy with was Aston Shell and of course it isn’t free-just a 30 day trial. Litestep I found to be unstable-if I used the default theme, my RAM usage would skyrocket and everything would freeze. So. I am currently using, StyleXP, Yahoo Widgets, ObjectBar and FlyAKiteOSX which emulates a Mac. Sort of. I suppose if I can’t afford a Mac-pretend as if I have one. Even if it is only a skin.
This is not meant to offend anyone-so take a chill pill. Now, on to my sighting. I stopped to get gas since I was going to my mother’s to help her bake a cake and fix strawberries for her birthday tomorrow. We’re having strawberry shortcake. Yum. Anyway, I was walking out and I passed this person. I was in my own little world, as I often am these days, and paid no attention. Until I get back to my car, pull the seatbelt around me and notice this: A red Jeep Cherokee, with two Dale Earnhardt, Jr bumber stickers, one of those oh so cute window stickers of the kid pissing on the word Ford, an I Love Nascar window decal-and, a Gay Pride rainbow sticker. Why I was so amazed by this is because I really hadn’t watched who walked in when I was leaving. Then I saw her. Black tattoos up and down both arms, a t-shirt with the sleeves cut off, a Dale, Jr baseball cap and work boots. Had she not been wearing a sports bra that was coming out of her t-shirt I would never have realized this was a woman. I have never seen a redneck lesbian. Seriously. I know lesbians-none of whom are rednecks. I must tell them so they can keep an eye out. Is there some sort of secret, underground redneck lesbian hangout?
For not writing interesting posts lately,(not that my posts are ever interesting). My life is in a stalled stage and I have no motivation, or, inspiration. Some days I feel as if I’m only surviving and not living. I miss the feeling of being needed-or important in my work. I miss family. I miss friends. I feel as if I’m not being given a chance and I have no idea how to fix the problem. In the last 4 months alone, I have sent resumes to over 30 companies. The only job I can find is telemarketing. It’s almost as if I’m jinxed. What should I do? What do any of you do when you find yourself in a situation in which you think you’ll never get out of? I’m at a loss-really. I have done everything I know to do. I’ve been reduced to pawning DVDs for gas money. Thankfully, with the donations I received for my hopeful efforts to buy Tim McGraw tickets, I was able to pay for my webhosting this month. Give me some ideas-advice. Anything.
