My mom gave me this book to read. I think I’m at a point in my life in which I’m searching for answers and coming up empty. When one has an empty feeling inside it isn’t a good thing. Some days I sit back and wonder why am I here? What am I doing to contribute to the world? I want to live, not exist. I think most of us feel this way at one time or another in our lifetimes. Maybe I’ll find an answer.

I’m not going to be nice to people any longer. I don’t feel like going into details. ‘Nuff said.

I suppose not, but this is what I had for my Easter Dinner. I got up at 7am, put the ham in the oven, made the dressing, green beans, corn, and a chocolate silk pie. I then find out at 12pm that my mom is still running a fever and aching and didn’t want me coming over and catching whatever bug has invaded her body. So who knows when I’ll actually have an Easter Dinner. After finding this out I put everything in the fridge and took a 3 hour nap. Got up, took a shower then headed to the bookstore. See, this is where I find refuge. Call me a dork, I don’t care. I come home and fix a bologna and cheese sandwich. Yay. Lovely holiday. Me and the rats.

I talked to my mom a few minutes ago. She still isn’t feeling well at all.. and said she would rather me call Heavenly Ham to see if they had half-hams then get potato salad etc. Oooh. What an Easter Dinner. I’d rather get KFC-Heavenly Ham is expensive. How the hell am I supposed to pay for this? I had planned on having just her and her dude over -I was going to fix a turkey breast and all the trimmings. But no. Apparently I am now feeding 5 more people who are no relation to me and I don’t plan on having them related to me any time soon. My mom did buy me a chocolate/peanut butter egg. Yay. One more thing to add on to my diet woes.